That's Funny. I've Been Sleeping With The Enemy.

I think it goes without saying that my life has been one complete utter shit show. Nobody cares about me or my life, and I've made peace with that. Unlike most people, I don't really need to feel important.  I used to have phrases I'd say to people when people were still around. I'd say things like, "I am The Lizard Queen," and "Don't you have any idea of who I think I am?", and "if wishes were kisses, we'd never be lonely." 

I find myself very alone lately. But not lonely. I've always been a wallflower. Many of my favorite activities can only be done alone. I was an only child raised by a single parent, my father. Oftentimes, in life growing up, I was alone. We were extremely poor, and my dad was extremely abusive, so I never had friends over. The last time I had a friend over, he hit me in front of them, even though their dad was his best friend. He kept making me clean the splash wall by the stove, over and over and over again. I wasn't meeting his specifications or expectations. He told me once that he wanted a boy. When I was like 8. At the same age, he'd started calling me a dumb little cunt, a stupid little bitch, and a pussy. 

Being called a pussy as a little girl was specifically reserved for the moments when I'd wish to listen to my intuition instead of my father. He'd typically challenge me to do something I was not comfortable with, not out of fear, but out of instinct. It was then I'd be called a pussy, ironically, all of my gut instincts come from my pussy. 

Only recently, thanks to The 4B Movement, have I come to realize that doing domestic housework itself can be abuse, and so is the idiotic XY's habit of food rationing. My father practiced both. The cleaning was over the top. I don't even like to clean now. As he expected perfection. He'd shout like an SS officer, "Inspection time!" and if the results of my labor were subpar, I'd have to do it again. Repeatedly.  Until it was absolutely perfect. 

One time in middle school, this friend of mine named Erin came over, she opened the cabinets in our kitchen, and she was eerily shocked since it resembled the exact scene from the film, Sleeping With The Enemy. Nobody ever believed me when I was a kid about my father being an abusive POS, since in public, he'd typically dote on me. Things weren't a revolving panopticon like they are now. I wasn't a girl on film. He was also a very hilarious man; he had charisma on the levels of Chevy Chase and Steve Martin. He could do 100 distinct voices and tell stories like nobody else.  He was so lovable, funny, and endearing to people that nobody ever believed me that he was a horrific monster behind closed doors. Erin didn't either. Until she saw the inside of our kitchen cabinets. Organized like grocery store shelving.    

I'm an extremely complicated person as I've had an extremely complicated life. Most mundanes will not comprehend how gifts from God come by the devil's hand. I told this one guy who's supposedly interested in me--I've met him in person exactly 2 times--yesterday, he's telling me that I'm a drunk with psychosis.  We don't text regularly, and we don't have long talks on the phone. I will admit to being a binge drinker, but I can go months to years without drinking. I met this idiot, mundane XY, in 2024. But he's a stupid cokehead who thinks he met me in 2023 and that I had a flask. I have never owned a flask. This cokehead mundane XY lives in another man's house, who he effectively terrorized out of his own home--I just realized that I shouldn't even be interacting with this guy, let alone stringing him along with replying XOXOs--and this house has had no running water since 2024, it's 2026 as of this writing. The last time I saw him, which was a few weeks ago, he now has no electricity either. So I'm not sure why he's fucking judging me. Judge not, lest ye be judged. 

If humans are supposed to treat each other like they'd like to be treated, I'd say with 4 abuse induced skeletal deformities that apparently everyone around me wants me to treat them like garbage. Verbal abuse is my love language now, baby. My daddy always tells me that the worst master is a former slave. Guess I'm in Depeche Mode now. 

Then it got back to me yesterday that apparently an entire group of white XYs wearing polos (I'm hippie or hood) in a house in Norton, Ohio (I don't know no white XY Nortonese) were talking about me last year. Loudly. They said that I had accused three different individual guys of raping me and that I was crazy. The polo wearing whiteboy, claimed I had accused the one guy of rape when I found out that he didn't make as much money as I thought he did. Absolutely none of this is true. I'm still shocked that someone in Norton knows how to pronounce my last name correctly. But now I'm hoping an F5 hits Norton. 

I've never dated a man who makes more money than me. Ever. I typically date men for their intellect and personality. Their ability to communicate effectively. That's why I'm a single lesbian now. I want a wifey. 

Very frequently in my life, XYs constantly seem to think that I need to be taught lessons; they, as do the at times equally awful XXs (the pick-me's), also think that I must be an STD riddled materialistic strumpet out wandering the streets stealing dicks that belong to other people. 

I'm a comic. Tried to talk about all this last night during my set, but 5 mins is never enough time for me to talk. That's why I started my new podcast Think Beyond Pink on Spotify. Ironically...I was drunk for the second recording. So maybe that douchebag cokehead is right about me. I haven't sat down to write episode 3, and I am scared to just start talking and rambling on. Hopefully, I can expound on why later. 

But if I had the amount of sex everyone seems to constantly assume I'm having? I'd be a much happier person, and I'd whistle every day. I also feel like only real POS rapists need to ever worry about "being falsely accused of rape". XYs are so myopic that they don't even realize that there are different types of rape. If someone isn't giving Informed Consent, then what occurs is called Rape by Deception. Like this one XY I had dated, with the premise of it turning into a serious relationship and marriage? He already had a live-in girlfriend, whom he cheated on, to have sex with me. He purposely misled me to think he wanted more than sex. Our society brainwashes XXs into thinking that intercourse is empowering and part and parcel of "dating" and that your boyfriend is a magic precursor to a guaranteed husband. 

This is all inherent bullshit and lies. 

The XY is an inferior subordinate with too much power. They created a "mind prison" not just for themselves but especially for us. I actually endorse Gender Segregation and XY-free zones. Entire communities where no XY lives. I read The S.C.U.M. Manifesto and thought Valerie Solanas was a little "extreme" in my early twenties. It's the most radical feminist manifesto I have ever read. Solanas argues for the complete elimination of men and the creation of an entirely female society. It was published in 1967.

She shot Andy Warhol, and they called her crazy too.

I get called crazy a lot. It used to bother me, because my parents have both been mentally institutionalized. I never wanted to be like either one of them. My father would tell me that everyone is crazy. I'm pretty sure I'm a high-functioning autistic who was most definitely and unfortunately born into a Germanic Nazi Satanic cult. They say you become what people call you. Apparently, I've become "crazy". However, I have CPTSD, PTSD, I've had two adverse medication reactions since 2022: Wellbutrin and Venlafaxine. I've had environmental neurotoxins impact my neurochemistry. 

It's typically stupid or fearful people who label an extremely intelligent female "crazy" and for my main point of existence to continuously be reduced down to intercourse is insane. I've come to loathe this preconstructed world. I was raised by a warlock. I ain't like you. I ain't like nobody, it turns out. See, my great-grandfather hails from Berlin, Germany. I'm Rh-. I've always been exceptional compared to the average person aka mundane. I'm a multifaceted high artist and not just because I'm a pothead. It appears the true origin of my family's last name is from a book about Faust. How fitting. It’s also a Lithuanian verb for what essentially means “spirit chatter box” - my original memories were of them being proud Germans. 

It was consistently maintained that I was only the third female born in our entire bloodline history. I was supposedly supposed to be a boy. Everyone was shocked when I came out female. I have a total of about 60 living relatives on my dad’s side and we never get together for family reunions or gatherings. We were excommunicated from our family, my father and I twice in my youth: 8 and then again at 11. I wish I could leisurely tell my story. I’m trying to give somewhat of a foundation but the reality is I must push through towards the warning first. I sustained an extremely severe TBI in March 2025 which is seemingly how such memories came forth. I can’t recall when the MRIs started but I had many. That entire situation needs to be documented as well since it’s a prime example of how this demonic system is failing Americans on a fundamental and moral scale. I’ve encountered two other instances of males who have at least had MRIs done and this caused them to have new memories unlocked. 

I ended up with amnesia from new trauma, so along with what occurred in present reality in tandem was extremely complicated previously forgotten memories of real trauma from childhood going back to pre-verbal instances. This was not run of the mill low-tier SRA crap I’m remembering everything I’m remembering is true. Everything I have to share is extremely important. I needed to share some upfront information about the fact that this is the first time I’ve tired writing again after my TBI. I’ve got a troubled and complex mind, but I need to explicitly warn and caution against any female exposing herself to any American XY moving forward. 

It is ironic that I originally started this blog as a radical feminist conspiracy theorist truther. I was indeed convinced of a deeper conspiracy because it was already partially repressed in my mind. This entire time. 

And I was right. However, to explain what I know and how is going to take so much longer to write and explain so I must fast forward to the crux of this information and shout my for real warning into the void and it will undoubtedly come across as crazy. But to dismiss my warnings as the ranting of a madwoman would be a huge mistake.

The crux of my warning is this: XYs have been severely impacted by a truly Sinister situation fueled by following The Left Hand Path. Those that rule over you truly are demonic and Satanic in ways that go far beyond then what gets structured by Hollywood, the media, advertising, and the internet. There really is a giant human experiment occurring it has been covert, I don’t profess to know everything or why, which is why I want to share my experiences and knowledge to help educate others so this can be prevented and stopped as to do nothing is what is insane. The Red Pill pipeline feeds The Black Pill pipeline. What fed The Red Pill pipeline was the introduction of slasher horror films and VHS pornography in the 1970s. Now there is an increasing amount of dark pornography on the internet including groups like the 764.

The 764 is a real group and is a spinoff of The Order of the Nine Angles. This is a real group, “started in the 1970s” they persisted to this day. Many, many offshoots of this group exist now. You can research this all more. My father was a warlock in this organization when I was a child. But this organization is an offshoot of ANOTHER organization, Thule. They are the same ones who founded the original Nazism, along with all three Abrahamic religions, and Catholicism more so closely resembles the core religion which is Thule. In passing research the Internet will inform that it only existed for two years and is pronounced “two-lee” - this is incorrect. It’s been a faction going back to Atlantis—or at least that is what I was taught as a child during my “secret studies—and originally was called something more innocuous like The Historic Order of Germanic Study. The pronunciation of Thule is more like THÜLĒ. Long u and e, like Zuul from Ghostbusters.

The new memories caused me to do more research. The Order of The Nine Angles is a Thule spin-off. Because the Nazis never surrendered. They went underground. All of these Satanic NeoNazi groups are planning for Day X. For male dark occultists they are purposely abusing others. There’s no such thing as “domestic violence” or “rape” or “assault” as you have been conditioned to know them. This is literally part and parcel of The Left Hand Path and Dark Enlightenment. Abuse and violence happens because of warlocks practicing their dark religion. It was male witches who practiced black magic that spent 400 years killing female white witches. Germany killed more witches than anyone else. Germany had the first and largest printing press. The free masons are Germanic lodges also founded by Thule. Thule founded all XY satanic groups including the mafia. Organized crime is organized religion. Not all Germans are Aryans and only real Aryans are Thule. Everything you think you know is a warped narrative. The microcosm of Thule is now a macrocosm pushed onto the greater American culture going back to at least 1942 if not earlier. They absolutely run Hollywood and Aylo. They are the architects of reality because they gatekeep esoteric occult knowledge from even their own “members” as you can never be Thule unless you’re a real Aryan. Real Aryans aren’t white or European or “Nordic” - they were aliens but Thule has twisted even the original narrative of the original truth. They now believe—or at least did 37 years ago the last time I had direct exposure—they are believing in a complicated structure where it appears that they would believe that they are Nephilim descendants, which means that they are descendants from The Watchers. So Thule doesn’t just believe this, they technically are descendants of “divine blood” from “spacemen” - Thule themselves never lost control, they are really worshipping Saturn, but they also believed in harnessing Sol energy from the Sun. The 9 “angles” and this is coming from memory alone, there’s really only 7 planets (Gnostic Christians would call the planets Archons), but then you add the Earth, the Sun, and the Moon and then you get 9 angles. The Order of Nine Angles is ultimately trying to manipulate these frequencies. As all is frequency. All is divine: holy, magic, science, technology—these concepts to them are not actually distinct but interchangeable. Saturn is not only our original sun, it still remains the most powerful. Saturn in real life is projecting twice the amount of plasma than the sun is. It’s called Z-plasma. Saturn really does emit a radio frequency at Earth (I’m just writing this on my phone for now, if I have time to go back and enhance this writing I will) and it’s similar to the WiFi signal. As above so below, they practice this. The main takeaways at this time is that Thule founded Zionism. They founded all three Abrahamic religions - all of their symbols go back to codified Saturn worship. They have somehow enslaved the soul force of this entire planet. This is Source Mother energy, all of life. For socialism’s sake you can’t have all male casts of deities. You can’t have two opposing parties of male deities, it makes the XYs psychotic. Completely bonkers. They are the weaker inferior sex. They have womb envy and covet our inherit connection to Source. Since the XY covets he condemns. Every single offshoot of The Left Hand Path “sinister” or “larp” (like even aesthetic Satanism what we call theater Satanism is extremely dangerous). Because they practice “culling” which is not just limited to blood sacrifices. They purposely molest children, they purposely rape and beat. Because they’re energy vampires, literally. All of these Satanic NeoNazis are Doomsday accelerationists who strive for Day X and the rise of the Vindex. These cults believe in “chaos entities” and “wyrms” because they’re real. They know about them. You don’t. Severe abuse of a child creates an “acasual” being.

So random acts of violence are not so randomly done. They have you all so incredibly brainwashed. Especially the females. 

If more females knew what I knew, you’d make sure that XYs numbers were reduced by at least 80%, you’d function as hive insects, ensure that XYs get treated much like they have successfully treated us: no access to higher education. Surviving XYs must not be allowed to read or have any sense of autonomy or authority. They must be stripped down to a sex slave class as that is ultimately what awaits the human female and all of her offspring if she doesn’t fight back now. Knowing all that I know now? Yes, the XY ideally should be terminated and eliminated completely. He is evil and myopic. We only need two X chromosomes to make more females, we don’t need the Y chromosome at all and it really is deteriorating and shrinking at an alarming rate especially for the American male. So large groups of XYs who fancy themselves warlocks even though they’re still mundane. Every non-Thule is slave class. It doesn’t matter how many sinister acts you do. Your blood-type and DNA will not make you Thule. My bloodline was not part of the Satanic elite even though in a great way we were. We were a kept bloodline for the 13th House, The House of Wolf. They bred us like a breed of dog. I’m Rh- and we were tied to an original berserker bloodline, these were essentially shapeshifters in battle. A Berserker could channel a boar, a bear, or a WOLF. They were basically trying to tap in on…I guess alien-demon werewolf blood. My handlers when I was a child were my father, my great grandfather who came from Berlin, he was a Sargent in the German Imperial Army in WWI, and some “Gatekeeper” named Viktor who belonged to the 13th House.

It was my memories of being groomed to become a Gatewalker—a lie made to my father, since I was born for another purpose—it helped tie the loop on much. This term does exist in the O9A. They believe in opening “Star Gates”. They have been doing this since the 1970s, opening portals and summoning and even creating “chaos entities” to help fester and take over this world. Because Thule wants to…I guess terraform Earth into a hellscape. To harvest loosh. To cull loosh. They didn’t call it loosh, I can’t remember what they called it because there is actually many different types of loosh. Robert Monroe coined the term loosh. But for instance Sol from the sun is a type of loosh. Magic is magic because of frequencies. There is math magic, color magic, chaos magic. The XY is the delusional gender that spends much time living within the confines of pure fantasy that teeters upon the brink of insanity and psychosis anyways. XYs project their own shortcomings upon the female due to their womb envy but deluded themselves that they are “the superior sex”. Males left to their own devices will starve and die in nature. They act like women need them for protection when it was a mother protecting them from predators the entire time. The American XY has become severely compromised and emotionally unstable by decades and generations of design. If the American female continues to operate from a place of internalized misogyny thinking an XY is a resource (as she is conditioned) it will continue to perpetuate this gender genocide and gender jihad that we are marginally on the receiving end on. 

The Satanic XY prioritizes and radicalizes and encourages only other XYs.

Day X is planned so Thule can rule openly. They care not about the demonic army they’ve been so diligently crafting.